I’m back! (Kind of.)

I haven’t written in almost a year. Here are the highlights: I went to Seoul with my family last August and celebrated my Dad’s birthday, went to Seoul with Justin last September and had a few precious days of “dating” and it was so fun and short, went back to the Philippines for Christmas break and flew to Bali from there too to meet Justin and that was really great too- and February came by and I finished my school year’s work contract. I traveled with Nikki and Dave to Tokyo and I finally got to see Hachi and shortly after I went on a three month long trip to the States.

So, I’m back. I’ve been back since early June and I’m writing this tonight with only an hour more ticking for the last day of July. 2014 is going by quickly, and I’m turning 25 this August and I still have no idea what I’m to do with my life.

And I was just thinking that when I decided to write this. I wonder… how it would feel to know what you want to do with your life? I would like to know. I know about some people who do, and they’re busy- they have this direction and are working hard to achieve things. I wish I had an obvious talent or a sought-after skill top companies look for. I’m figuring out my life and I hope I do some damage this year, I want 25 to be different- as much of a messed up person I am- I think I’ve definitely grown up some. In some ways that matter to me as a person so at least that’s something. We’re not completely hopeless here.

So, it’s almost my favorite month. It’s late in the year already but I’m working on it, ‘cause I don’t just want to be back… 

I want a comeback.

The storms come and go, the waves crash overhead, the big fish eat the little fish, and I keep on paddling.

– A Clash of Kings, George R.R. Martin

Erika on paper

Listening to Ingrid and wondering if I’m ever gonna look good on my resume.

Wondering, fretting, worrying, stressing (a little bit)

9 months at a bank, 2+ years “teaching” here in Japan.

I used to swim? I used to have a lot of extra curriculars when I was a kid?

I’ve traveled?

I learn fast and will work hard?

I’m still young, I have potential?

I… am wondering why I have no useful skills or talents to highlight? I remember marketing class and if I am the product- what is my selling point?

What Erika? What are you good at? What do you want to do? What can you do, having accomplished so little?